There is nothing between us

There is a thick wall of nothing
round my head
blanking out thought
and connection
I feel seperate
even though you are in the room
with me
I cannot focus my sight
I cannot focus my thought
I cannot find words or images
in my mind
There is a sea of blankness
where vivid imagination
and vibrant colour
should be
I cannot truly explain
why I feel this way
It feels physically tangible
this desolate empty wall
of invisible horribleness
that lies between me
and the outside world
and you who I love
most dearly of all.

Linda Crowhurst

09.02.10

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