The breaks in connection are complex and many layered. I cannot bear to look out my eyes contract with pain I cannot find the words there is merely blank space where mind should be I cannot read any information my eyes jump about and will not focus I cannot speak on the phone my head is overloaded with words and noise that make no sense I cannot listen to the radio the talking muddles my brain and irritates my ears I cannot move my limbs my muscles are jelly filled with throbbing pain. I cannot listen to conversation my mind simply cannot follow the thread of information. I cannot bear to be touched my body shrinks and shakes with the lightest contact. there are many disconnections between thought and action So many persecuted moments from trying to engage with ordinary life The hardest thing to bear though is the ignorance and deliberate manipulation of truth so that I am left alone isolated and screaming in agony tormented by everyday living not even knowing the reasons for my medical malfunction because society has shut its ears and eyes to the truth and carries on a path of denial and righteous persecution against all who are like me trying to live in a fractured body that is utterly broken inside.