There must be a word…..

There must be a word . There must be.....for I badly need to describe this experience to myself ......

Is there a word that encapsulates the magnitude of the loss in long term Chronic Illness and Acute Hypersensitivity?

The decades of invisibility, separation, isolation .

The years of no one seeing you, or recognising you, or knowing you anymore.

The physical losses .

The loss of interaction.

The loss of being understood.

The financial losses, the poverty.

The enormous loss of what might have been. The career, the holidays, the concerts, the coffees, the traveling, the children.

What is the word I am looking for? 

What is the word for everything taken away?