I was broken by you




I lie here

Pain-filled, screaming at the empty desolation of a broken life

Unable to move

Unable to think

Unable to do almost anything

Except hope or despair

Tortured without end by every simple thing

Just consider this

When you walked about your comfortable lives doing your everyday normal things 

Ignoring that I existed

I was broken by you

When you wore your putrid perfume, infiltrating  my space again and again - harming my body

I was broken by you

When you said, for God-knows-how many times, hope all is well - how could it ever be

I was broken by you 

When you never asked about my reality - left me weeping in total isolation

I was broken by you

When you ignored my indescribable moment-by moment suffering - for 27 years

I was broken by you

When you pretended to know what would help me- then effectively pushed me off a cliff into utter torment with no way back

I was broken by you

When you arrogantly wrote lies about me- then refused to withdraw them

I was broken by you

When you ignored what I said - totally misinterpreted me

I was broken by you

When you spoke untruth about me - negated me even more

I was broken by you

When you made up stories about me - complete fabrications

I was broken by you

When you failed to ask or show concern about me  - completely ignored my reality and context:

I was broken by you

When you sent me inappropriate, useless, old, broken or dirty gifts - in  total disregard for my life, my age, my need, my feelings

I was broken by you

When you walked by on the other side of the road - too busy in your self-importance

I was broken by you

When you failed to let me know about things that you were doing, that you knew would seriously harm me- but chose to ignore

I was broken by you

When you gave me wrong drugs or treatment that damaged my body and totally disregarded the outcome

I was broken by you

When you refused to help me - utterly closed your mind

I was broken by you

When you ignored me and failed to stay in touch because it was too complex or difficult to deal with or face

I was broken by you

When you got on with your busy life and pretended I was ok

I was broken by you

When you walked away forever - just for seeing how terribly ill I actually am

I was broken by you

When you simply forgot or never knew how to care

I was broken by you

When you let me down- refused to see -

I was broken by you



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